Just got the hankering to try blogging again and have been sitting here trying to remember what I forgot. It has been a long time since I sat here and there have been lots of changes in my life. 

We now have four grandsons, Cain, Austin, Jace and Silas and of course a granddaughter,Miss Eden Jade. It is still hard for me to think of myself as old enough to have grandchildren, although I am reaching that 50 mark in my life. But when I was their ages, Grandma and Grandpa Wooten were "old". Maybe that's why I have a problem thinking of myself as "old enough" to have them. But regardless, old enough or not, I do and I love them all more than any of them will ever know. I just wished life was not so busy that I miss time with them. They are growing up so fast and I do not like the fact that I have to work and not get to "just be there" with them on special events.

 My siblings and I have changed roles with Mom too, in the last few years. Mom's health is declining and her mind wonders more than it stays in one place. It is sad to think of her just sitting there in her little world (she knows who we are and functions well but she still thinks Bill Clinton is president, which that might would be a good thing...ok wont go there) but for the most part she is happy enough. Maybe happy is not the right word but she doesn't have to worry about anything. She doesn't know to worry about how she will pay bills, buy groceries or even know to wonder what is going to happen with politics and how bad this old world is turning in to. I am glad that she does not have those things to worry about.

 As I sit here trying to figure out what to put on here I am listening to FOX news and they are talking about the beheading in Oklahoma. I do not mind telling you that I am scared and I know things are going to get a lot worse for the United States. I know that but it still scares the dickens out of me for what we will have to go thru before Jesus comes back. Sometimes my heart just aches.

 I pray we are all ready when it happens but I see those around me that I know are not where they need to be. Sometimes I look at myself and feel like I am not ready.I know part of that is the devil putting fear in my life but I also know the Holy Spirit is there too, reminding me that we all need to be ready. That I need to be ready. Reminds me of a song I used to sing in church, by Ray Boltz, "Will you mention my name?" So in ending, if you are a Christian, when you pray, will you mention my name?

 

Earth's Loss is Heaven's Gain

 Just found out that we lost a dear sweet lady this last weekend. I did not know her as well as I should have, I should have been a better friend and visited with her more and not let work and things get in the way, but I failed. We often do that and then in times like this, we regret not doing more. Everytime I feel this way, I say I am going to do more next time, tell more people how I feel and be there, even to just hold their hand and let them know someone cares.
 I will never forget the last hour I spent with Mona. She was in the hospital and I had went by after work. She and I spent time talking and when I had asked her how she was feeling, she replied, "I've been better". The only thing I could think of was, "and you will be better again." I felt it would not be long until she would be all healed. But I still failed to go back to see her when I should have. I feel rotten about that.
 So how can I have these feelings for Mona (and others I did not say what I needed to) and still feel that there are other relationships that I want to give up on? Relationships that should be the most important but I feel so lost in them that I can't say the words I need to say and have the feelings I should have.
 Rest in peace sweet Mona... 

Happy Weekend

 So spring is getting closer. I love seeing the flowers popping up and blooming. I am so wanting to work in my yard but I am on call this weekend and have patients to see. Maybe next weekend...
 Yesterday was mom's 79th birthday and we are celebrating it tomorrow with a get together at her house. Sad things... She don't remember that we are coming and more than likely, tomorrow night she wont remember that anyone was there, and there will be a lot of anyone's there. We are trying to keep her at home for as long as possible but it is getting closer to where she will require 24 hours supervision. I don't know what we will do when it gets to that point.
 It is an adjustment, changing roles from child of the parent to parent of the parent. I am sure most everyone who reads this has been there or are going there. It's tough not letting her make 100% of her decisions but that's where we are. About the only decisions she makes it such as when to get out of bed, what to wear and what to eat. But it is something. So sad. 
 Hope all is well and you and your family are happy and healthy...
Gina

Spring time

 I am so glad that spring is practically here. I love spring more than any of the other three seasons. It is a time of new growth and it brings to mind all God has blessed us with. Each day, we should be thankful for the things He has given us, so generously. How many times do we take everything for granted?
 This weekend we have spent a few days away from home and it has been great. We have talked, played and laughed more than we have in a while. Time gets in the way and we have just survived all winter. Now that spring is here we can once again start all over.
 Take time today and every day to thank God for all he has given you. Even the small things. They all are given to you by the most powerful and gracious God.
 Thank you Lord for every day you have given me, for my family, health and even the job that I am sometimes guilty of complaining about. Without You I would not be where I am today, or who I am today. Please keep me and my family in your arms and hold us close, protecting us with your shield.
Amen.
 Hope you all a have a great day, whereever you are and whatever you do.
Gina

Purpose

 Yesterday I bought yet another devotional book. This one is by Beth Moore, "Looking Up" Trusting God with your every need... I do have a desire to follow God but I have bad, lazy habits. This first devotion was about purpose. What do I feel my purpose in life is (I have no idea) and  what keeps me from pursuing a purpose filled life? Plain and simple it is thoughtlessness and old bad lazy habits. Someone once told me it is harder to get in to church than it is to get out of it.
 One thing as I thought of as I was reading Psalm 139 this morning was how that God has been there with me and for me through out every aspect of my life. I have not had a horrible life by no means, but there were some times I went through rough patches and He brought me through them, even though I was not living like I should have been. And I have had some great moments that I have thanked Him for, but I wonder if He believes me when He hears thank you.
 I can not count all the blessings He has given me, even within the last four years. Some of them include meeting and marrying Doc. I do love him with all my heart. Along with him I also got another daughter, son in law and two beautiful grandchildren.Those five people alone have brought me joy. And then I have a new son in law who is going to make a fine father and husband. But the newest blessing is laying beside me in bed as I write this. Austin Scott. He is beautiful and perfect and I can not imagine, how anyone can say there is no God.
 And just to think,God has every hair numbered and every thought already thought out and He knows now what this child will be and what great wonders he will accomplish in his life.

Thank you God, for every blessing, those we have witnessed and those to come, that you have bestowed upon us. We are yours and I ask you to cover us with your shield of protection and cover us with your love. Lead us in Your ways, teach us your ways and please, please, please be patient with us as we become what you want us to be.

Welcome Baby Austin

 What a great week. Austin Scott was born Jan 30, 2011 at 11:12pm. He is beautiful and I tear up thinking of how much God has blessed me. Three beautiful kids and three beautiful grandkids. Whatta life.