Just found out that we lost a dear sweet lady this last weekend. I did not know her as well as I should have, I should have been a better friend and visited with her more and not let work and things get in the way, but I failed. We often do that and then in times like this, we regret not doing more. Everytime I feel this way, I say I am going to do more next time, tell more people how I feel and be there, even to just hold their hand and let them know someone cares.
I will never forget the last hour I spent with Mona. She was in the hospital and I had went by after work. She and I spent time talking and when I had asked her how she was feeling, she replied, "I've been better". The only thing I could think of was, "and you will be better again." I felt it would not be long until she would be all healed. But I still failed to go back to see her when I should have. I feel rotten about that.
So how can I have these feelings for Mona (and others I did not say what I needed to) and still feel that there are other relationships that I want to give up on? Relationships that should be the most important but I feel so lost in them that I can't say the words I need to say and have the feelings I should have.
Rest in peace sweet Mona...
